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2008-04-14T14:36:00.005+08:00

CLOSED!GONE GONE GONENO MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2008-03-25T15:54:00.001+08:00

i've concludednothing sucks more than to be treated like shit invinciblei'm in a very low placei lost the smile on my facethis blog will be terminated after this post

2008-03-22T01:46:00.016+08:00

I'M BACK FOR JAPAN!the trip was awesomethe weather was sooo good! highest was 6 degrees and it was pretty cold on certain daysbut i loved the coldness!i would walk on the street without my gloves and beanie!now i can say.i officially know how to ski!WOOHOOOand there was falling snow which was soo beautiful.4 hotelslots of good foodlots of laughther lots of nre experiences i will never

2008-03-04T01:09:00.021+08:00

MY LOVE. SHALS THE BITCHmet for some talks and smokes friday's plan to go phuture was scratched!HOW DISAPPOINTINGtickets were sold out!so we headed to shitty MOS.gosh so SICK of that placemany many funny things happenedJEAN WAS FREAKING HIGH!i also dunno why also!LOUSY DRINKER LAH JEANshe cannot shut up she kept talking rubbish and alland charmaine got the bartender's number!WOOHOO!HAHAmy eyes

2008-03-03T21:43:00.004+08:00

two very good movies which i caught in bangkokboth is about magictheir plot is really good with all the twists and turnsMUST WATCH!THE PRESTIGE!It all begins in turn-of-the-century London. At a time when magicians are idols and celebrities of the highest order, two young magicians set out to carve their own paths to fame. The flashy, sophisticated Robert Angier is a consummate entertainer, while

2008-03-02T20:17:00.030+08:00

i've FINALLY uploaded all the bangkok pictures after so longBANGKOK was the ultimatei spent SO MUCH!bought plenty of stuff thus explains me being broke now!but then again 6D5N with mother aint tt fantastici feel that her handphone was more impt than i was.BEVERLY ASHLEY TAN is super independent!she shopped by herself and bargained by herself in a foreign countryshe explored places by herself when

2008-02-14T00:39:00.002+08:00

LOVE W34C GIRLS!i got to eat sushi buffet with yumin minyi gloria shirui and shujun even tho it was a super last minute thing and they all came down!UBER HAPPEE!!!we were super tai tais ytd.me with my spongebob shirt going into LV to find the LV scarf which is so Nice! $245! hahahahaden we headed to gucciI'M SO GG TO GET THAT GUCCI WALLET FOR MY BIRTHDAY. $780 :Dso it was the chill out session at

2008-02-12T00:57:00.000+08:00

SHALSSHAWNBATAMSHEESHACNYMOS---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------BATAM!! 4th feb 08went with theresa, e-milli, ku kong chun and aunty cecilia2hr massage and body scrub! SHIOKERSshoppeddid our hairsdinner: ayam bekar and ayan pengyet--------------------------------------------

2008-02-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

CLINICKANDISCHOOL'S OUTanyhows, one cannot resists any alcohol temptation-------------------------------------------------CLINIC 25th jan 08yes we really like to suck.-------------------------------------------------31 jan 08girls day outwe all skipped school halfway :)some Kbox and KANDI*MAJOR CAM-HOsminyi the best singermet lillian there!-----------------------------------school's out

2008-01-30T08:36:00.000+08:00

at 1215 this morningwas the first time in 2008that i cried over something which i thought was left in 2007something i thought i have long gotten oversomething i thought i've healed fromwell, apparently i've being living in denial.

2008-01-24T01:03:00.000+08:00

dinner last friday with mom and benthe last dinner out before ben heads to the armySUN AND MOON------------------------------------I WANT TO BUY MY SAKUN BAG!I WANT IT SO BADLY!!!AHHHHHH. it's only er. $123 before shipping! LOL.ahhhhneed to work and save save save money!bangkok trip w mom in febjapan trip w family in marchrome/paris in sept?bangkok trip w churchies in decAND MY ITOUCH!!!

2008-01-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

wow.it's time to wipe the dust off this blog.:]i've since gone back to school and i have only 4 more days before i finally finish my year 2! CLAPS!!!nth much to update about other than i'm FREAKING B.R.O.K.Eanyways celebrated theresa's 20ththeresa's raoul shirtmr driverCLINIC

2007-12-31T17:55:00.000+08:00

today's the last day of 2007i remember writing an entry like this a year backwell, i feel that 2007 was a good year for me there are many things which happened that made 2007 a good one for methough i hardly keep any of my new year resolution,i'd manage to fufill onei've officially quit smoking.i've also cut down on my alcohol intake.i'm over and done with the whole smoking and drinking phrasei'm

2007-12-30T20:21:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK FROM THE HIGHLANDS YO!the trip was fun!the weather was the best. LOVED IT.had gaby as my room matethe theme park was surprisingly good and i had gaby and nette to acc me for all the big rides. :Dthe things there were pretty expensive got myself some shoes and tops and POOFS$250 was gone just like that.+ me and gaby did our hairs. i touch up my pink!i did and experience many things i

2007-12-27T01:50:00.000+08:00

GENTING HERE I COME!^^super excited now.cause this will be the first overnight trip without the parentsjust friends as company.we're not going for any misson any serivce trip or business tripbut purely for our entertainment and enjoymentsomehow i feel so independent now as though i've grown upi remember the day lynette theresa and me were at vivo planning this tripand it was 153 days away.now its

2007-12-21T01:37:00.000+08:00

geez.i've been really busy these past few daysso school's out already!AT LONG LAST MAN.well on our last day, SAD faci treated us to pizza! this is the first time our class took picture together!well although school closedschool's open house has been really occupying my days up.with me having to be involved in open house for SITand it was a star wars teamso yours truly had to be queen amadala.day

2007-12-06T01:14:00.000+08:00

BEST FRIEND BEST FRIEND BEST FRIEND.i'm sure you know who you are.this special entryentry number 723 belongs to only YOUi feel that i dont show how much i appreciate you.i can never tell you how much i'm grateful for ever meeting you.i can never tell you how i would simply die if you weren't in my life.i can never tell you how glad i'm am that we are so similaryou've been my pillar of strength.

2007-12-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

this weekend has been a really contemplative one.i really want to know how do you measure a break up?is it by the amount of tears you cry?or is it by who had the last word of the argument?or is it by the amount of memories made before it all happened?why is it that a heartbreak makes no sound, causes no catastrophe,causes no panic,causes no lives lostbut your heart break into a million pieceslike

2007-12-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

candlelight dinnered at grillers to celebrate shanie's birthday on monday.a nice little corner for just me shaz shanie and minyi to make whore and make noise.:]ANYHOWS.i've been informed that the threadless tees have been shippedhopefully it will arrive by next week or the nexttotal of 24 shirts. 299.55 USDso roughly +-18 per shirtwill keep yall informed!ATTACK!dream girls!shaz was damm

2007-11-26T13:47:00.000+08:00

BEVERLY ASHLEY TAN BOUGHT HER MCR TICKETS ALREADYalthough it has burnt a gigantic hole in my pocketand i've to skip lunch in school cos i've no money.it'll prolly be all worth it! :Dmet with up on fri with nette theresa and tim for dinner and OJ ice cream! :Dstarbuck-edwe made a impromptu decision to meet kim and go to HK cafechin-chow milk teaice honey with lemon.went to beach road market with

2007-11-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

the busy week is finally over:)so on thursdaywent for the gala screening of beowulf we had free dinner free popcorn + drink free movie:]the movie wa ok only.it was all digital and the storyline was rather cheesy------------------------------------------------------fridaySKIPPED SCHOOL!worked at national stadiumthe job was ok lah we still managded to cam whore all5+ hrs and we got $60! :Dlast few

2007-11-16T22:44:00.000+08:00

web multimedia class was awesome beesomegot to take some pretty cool pictures! :Dthanks to lyna and especially minyi and hsiao li as my models.brenda and lynaJUMP!lyna and hsiaolischool's a pretty awesomely nice place afterall.:Dphut!

2007-11-14T14:38:00.000+08:00

PP is finally done.report is doneposter is donepresentation is done. :Dworked on sat with some w34cerswasn't that bad still managablecam whored even during work :)$80 bucks earned! :]]]Miss SIT campaigne pictures! myrah(F5), tracy(F2)supporters!----------------------------------------------CLASS STEAMBOAT DINNER AT MARINA BAYtotal ah lians! 1-10cock eyed------------------------------------------

2007-11-09T13:01:00.000+08:00

i realise i haven't mentioned this yetTRACY LAU WON MISS SIT!!!!!yes yes.this was the first time W66R was so united and campaigned together for tracy to winfrom everyone wearing all blackto everyone pasting papers on their back saying to support tracyand to some of us drawing F2 on our faces.OUR CAMPAIGN WENT REALLY REALLY WELL!:]i've yet to get the pictures from tracy tho.ANYHOWS.met up with

2007-11-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

:)met theresa to go over to golden mileit's CONFIRMED!!!church gang is going to GENTING27th-29th dec!!!WE ALREADY BOOKED AND PAID FOR THE TICKET! :Di'm SO EXCITED!WOOHOO 54 more days..oh and did i say MCR IS COMING TO TOWN.38 more days!WOOTS.i'm gg with shaz, anyone wanna come with?anyways.went shopping with theresa!WAHLAU!spent soooooo much150 for genting trip30 for vintage bag20 for vintage

2007-11-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

so, even with only 1hr 30 mins of sleep on wed morningi still manage to go to school and have HR lessonswhich killed my brain cells.came home immediately and SLEPT.SLEPT THROUGH MASS.SLEPT THROUGH THE SUPPOSE TIME TO GO FOR HALLOWEEN PARTY.which was pretty screwed up.so upset about the party.the whole planEVERYTHING.petty effed upanyways.PICTURES OF HALLOWEEN 2007.BRIDE OF CHUCKY.SPOOKY SPOOKY EH

2007-11-04T00:10:00.000+08:00

ok i've gotten all the pictures alreadyand i figure this is gonna be a uber long post.so i'll split the entry up.29-OCT-2007SABO-ING OF THE 3 OCTOBER MONKEYS.karmun. lillian. shiyun--we made each one of them think that they are going to sabo each other but in the endwe saboed all 3 of themfirst was lillian then shiyun then karmunit took hell lots of effort simply because they kept struggling and

2007-11-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

30th Oct 2007SHIYUN BBQ BIRTHDAY PARTY.her bbq went rather well just that there were a few problem cos her brother was there.jaslin the cookpasir ris park at 12amgood times singer along while jaslin plays th guitar.it started to rain pretty heavily and we ran to the shelter with everythingand me lillian jaslin and joyce continued with our bbq under the shelter while it was rainingextinguishing

2007-10-31T04:34:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!it's 430 in the morning nowand i just came back for shiyun's birthday bbq party!WAHAHAHAand i have yet to do my RJyet to bathplus I GOT SCHOOL IN 4 HOURS!wahahahahaupdate soon! :)BYEBYEBYE! :]]]]]]

2007-10-29T19:58:00.000+08:00

so today went by very fast.we had the 3-in-1 birthday sabo for karmun lillian and shiyunpictures shall be up soon!:[OH OH OH AND...MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!

2007-10-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

flea market at *scape with hsiao li, kailing and minyi ytdit so bloody HOT.i know i'm not suppose to spend but i bought my vintage bag!:]ate pasta mania again!YAYNESS.recently i have huge eating urges and i cannot stop eating.IT TIME TO STOP!SMALL EYES :[we actually look alike eh?surprisingly ben called in ytd afternoonand practically freaked outasking me where i was and why i haven't been going

2007-10-27T03:03:00.000+08:00

ok. i've came back home alreadyso i manage to upload the hari raya pictures.enjoy :]shaz's place--------------------------------------------------------On the way to shanie's place--------------------------------------------------------------------shanie's placethe unique kuehslike aunties like thatself-entertainment

2007-10-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

3rd day since i've left homeit's kinda cool and me being independent and all but at the same timei'm running out of clothes! :[i'm left with like one dollar till the end of the week.BROKE. sigh.mom is gg to st judes this weekendtotal awesome!maybe then i shall return :)thanks to all who asked if i'm ok and if i'm settled in and all:)I'M OK. SWEAR I AM.meet ups will commence soon kkies * hatred

2007-10-23T14:40:00.000+08:00

JALAN RAYA with minyi yumin to shaz and shanie house tried all the baju kurongs and ate all the kuehsit was really an eye openerit's actually more fun then chinese new yearpictures will be up soon :)well. i won't be staying at my current house for awhilei'll be calling home in the westso there wont be any meet ups or calls at my placecall me on my cell if i need to get methanks!:]

2007-10-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

fri night lights.met up with shals dearestit's been long since we last hang out around our area.she came to woodlands just to pick me up!SWEETNESS!so we had PASTA MANIA!after so so so long!!!chatted at my place playground with music as our companionshals was all ready to club!somehow. i've the urge to smoke and club.BADLY. DAMMK810i rawks eh?i know they all look the same.but they are all NICE pfft

2007-10-12T13:39:00.000+08:00

TGIF!seriously.school has been taking a toll on mei finally fell sick with a terrible cold ytdand i had UT after school so i had to stay in the school library for 6 hoursthankfully i had the company of my shows.:]caught superbad with jean the other dayIT SUCH A SICK SHOW.all the sex topics and dicks.but nonetheless it was damm funny.+ it was free.SELAMAT HARI RAYA.

2007-10-09T14:39:00.000+08:00

BOTAK JONES IS OPEN AT WOODLANDSso last night i headed down with ryan jaslin joyce wandi and lillian for our supposed CLASS dinnerSO MUCH FOR A CLASS WHEN THERE IS ONLY 6 PEOPLE.i was so irritated.its not as though i did not tell yall in advanceand those who said were going in the end all never go.didn't even inform if going or not.if yall are not interested then tell meso i don't have to WASTE

2007-10-07T09:19:00.000+08:00

rahhhhha whole entire entry i previously did is GONE.blogger is starting to annoy me.ANYHOWS.home club was rocking yo!:]manage to catch BISMUTHTHEY JUST KEEP GETTING BETTER.ah jean. dont drool over steve eh?FIRE FIGHT was awesome toothe company was great.jean charmaine nurimah amalina and bfminyi hsiaoli kailing vanessayes. so after everyone left and only the 3 girls where leftwe gulp down beer

2007-10-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

woots entry 700!this blog has came a long way since it started in 2003.now i realise how much i've really grown up.:]anyhows.HAPPY SEXY 18 SHAZ BABY!i got to spend time with that girl on her bdayshe followed me to toni & guy to cut my hairHAHAHA.the hair is all GONE!and it was FREE yo!yeps. so last night me minyi shaz and shanie went to arab street for some sheeshawe had so much FUN!just hanging

2007-09-30T13:07:00.000+08:00

wounds are once again pried openpraying for you doesn't seem to worki'm losing hope. i'm losing my will to go oni wish i never knew anythingignorance is blissthe burden is too much for me to go on.so i find myself crying on a sunday afternoon.

2007-09-29T19:58:00.000+08:00

we build these dreams on sandHow they all slip through our handsPlease don't ask me howI ended up at my wits end and beaking downwhywhywhy did you changeok bye.

2007-09-24T16:35:00.000+08:00

anyways.the US trip album is up.http://bevvytan.multiply.com/:]yesterday was kong kong's 12th year death aniversarythe famly was gathered.jokes were toldwhy did the man bang on the woman?...because he was blind!what did the aircon say to the fan?...i'm cooler than you / i'm cool. you're hot!my dear 5 and 7 year old cousins told me these.i couldn't stop laughing cos they are so

2007-09-13T09:33:00.000+08:00

i'm back yo!i know this is a very due update.but i've started school and i'm so busyhaving a 5 day week again really wore me out.class is alright as there are familiar faces in class and next door.now there is the whole issue of PP.and when every one has wed to do their PPi've to go to school for my elective. HR managementthe class is sooooo STRESSFUL! everyone in class is so good, all the roll

2007-08-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

all my bags are packi'm ready to goi'm leaving on a jet planedont' know if ill be back again.yes. a few more hours and im OFF.my flight SQ12 945am T2 would be 17hrs longOMFG.my mood to go now is seiously dampenmany things happen within the familyfuck. i have to spend 3 weeks consistenly with them.hurranyhows. i would like to thank W34C for having first break with me.theresa who lend me her

2007-08-15T18:09:00.000+08:00

I OWE THIS BIG UPDATE TO EVERYONE.i would like to thank everyone who had a part to play for my birthday!:DFRIDAY:thanks to w66k for the birthday cake on friday and the video plus presents.went clubbing with the church and ij girls.12 of us made it.thanks to lynette, theresa, kim, tim, brendon, shawn, sarah, julie, boon, cheang, nicholas and patrick for being there to count down to my birthday and

2007-08-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

home club was rocking yo.manage to catch bismuth with jean charmaine nurimah, amalina and her bfTHEY JUST KEEP GETTING BETTER! :Doh FIRE FIGHT WAS SO AWESOME TOO!by this time me charmaine and jean has downed 4 mugs of beer like fishesand we were HIGH.:]next up was pure dancing to indie and alternativeAND WE WERE PART OF THE SCENE!WOOTS.light sticks are love!FRIDAY I'M IN LOVE!

2007-08-06T20:36:00.001+08:00

FUCK LAH.i feel so sian so down.this is the first time since the semester started that i really did not want to go to school, i was too tired, too sick. my mood was so DOWN DOW DOWN!the things i see really make me sadbut i just have to brush it off. no point bothering abt itcos they don't bother. they probably are not aware!AUG IS REALLY GIVING BIRTH MONTH1st: asal2nd: sara, nat5th: kimberly7th:

2007-08-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

BAYBEATS IS AWESOMEEE !!!anyways just a quick update on my injury thingwell, apparently my hip is swollen and i hurt before of which i have no ideaand i had a bandage on and i manage to remove to todayWOOTScaught baybeats with dinie minyi shanie and her friendswoots.BISMUTH WAS SOOO SEXY LAH.best set ever!FIRE FIGHT was dammm good also!joshua is HAWT HEHnot one but 3 people wished me happy

2007-08-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

2 gigs and clubbing events this weekJUMP was on tuesday and it was AWESOME.well it was the official opening of RP and PM Lee came to our school.it was mainly more of rocking out and clubbing.there was heavy moshin going on and i got moshed intoso i defended myself and moshed back.THE ONLY GIRL AH!:Dyeps. clubbed with the shaz and shanie and made new friends too.girls really know how to have fun

2007-07-29T22:55:00.000+08:00

I'M SO FREAKING SIANSIGH.shan't talk about ittime would heal i guessi just have to take things in its stride.anyhows. pictures for the class celebration for shiqi and amos birthday plus amos birthday sabo-ation.SHIQI'S BIRTHDAY.the birthday girl.W66Kmu!!!lunch at sakurai find this hillarious!me and leslyYANLIN!egg tiramitsu creampuff and water extra soya beantissue and soursop

2007-07-20T09:49:00.000+08:00

dearest shiqi says that i don't update frequently.i'm simply not those type who would update every single cause i hardly have anything to say either.and i'm prolly gonna close this blog down soon.anyhow.W66k went to watch harry potter on tuesday plus dinie the whole row was mostly occupied by the 14 of usand our row made the most noise laughing and all.the show aint that nice! no. 3 ad 4 was

2007-07-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

so yesterday ended on a good note!after mass with lyn and theresa.i headed to over to clarke quay to meet clement.we went to paste de warakuthis place which sells pasta but in jap stylethe food was fantasticthe bill came up to 66 bucksand clement treated me!ahhhh and not forgeting, we had to bump into mother of all things.darn.but anyways! THANKS clem.i owe you one<3salmon and avocado saladtomato

2007-07-14T15:52:00.000+08:00

OK I'm done pretending I'm alright. I'm okcause I'm done with the facade of a life I'm livingdone with masking my sadness with me being retarded and hyper.I'M NOT HAPPY I'M NOT HAPPY I'M NOT HAPPY.so i had to drag myself to school after crying the whole nightand end up crying so badly in school until my eyes were so swollen.thanks shaz for actually coming to class to find me and lend me ur

2007-07-11T17:26:00.000+08:00

ok i know this is kinda late butTRANSFORMERS WAS THE BOMB YO!HAHAH.went to PS to watch transformers with shaz.damm shiok!she ah. talk so loud in the cinema all!TSK!ohoh.dearest mama bought me a electric blue adidas watch for my birthday!WOOTS. it's unique! :Di was so happy ytd!our class wore black in full forceW66K. BLACK OUT!i was so in love with myself cos i was wearing BLACK from top to toe!<

2007-07-04T19:53:00.000+08:00

electric blue is the sex yo!i felt so happy wear electric bluey ytdgod knows why!java class was surprisingly alrighti actually knew what i was doing i left early ytd to meet the churchie.WHEEEEEEEEEEEE. more shoppingi got my havaianas!XDwe went all over finding for tim a present for his girlGOOD LUCK THIS SAT DUDEso today saw me going down to the national library to study for tmr's testand before

2007-07-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

zomfg!the weather is so HOT HOT HOT!sheeshglobal warming is really taking place in full throttle!like how god gave us our bodies we should spoil it with smoking and drinkinggod gave us an earth to live on so we should not spoil it with pollution all.LIVE EARTH!. wear green!i finally got my allowance and i want to get so many things!. white/barley white skinnys. super man tee.. junk food rolling

2007-06-25T11:09:00.000+08:00

dealing with it day to daytrying not to think so muchtaking thing step by step.im getting better; i guessit sucks to be BROKEi have to celebrate so many people's birthday and get presents all.and there are so many things i cant do.i can't shop. i can't eat. i can't celebrate.there is so much things i wanna get!. junk food superman tee. junk food rolling stone tee. suspenders. denim berms. white

2007-06-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

balcony-ed on tues night with the churchiescount down to lyn's 19thsex on the beach is the bomb yo!so i was chatting with brend when he asked me smthand i told him that i was too hurt to like anyoneand he told me; bev you can never get too hurt.come to think about it, its rather true!not only in the relationship/love contextbut in generalpeople never seem to surprise you and hurt you in many ways

2007-06-18T00:07:00.000+08:00

creative writing in school on friday wasn't so badit did bore me most of the timesand i wonder how shaz could be so entertained while i was stoning awaybugised after thatand i got my vest top and cardigan!WOOTS.but im dead broke now RAHHHHHso nth much for the weekendother than me waking up this morning after a 5 hour sleepand making my way to church in the nice cool weatherBUT a stupid car had to

2007-06-13T00:49:00.000+08:00

so today saw me waking up extra early just to head down to school for some creative writing stuff.on good note, i finally got to get out of the house and walk off my 39.9 high fever and cough. so with much reluctancy i got my butt up and made my way to school on that ever so lovely 966 bus which i fell asleep in and i could swear i thought i only slept for 5 minutes!the class was pretty alright

2007-06-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

the bitch is back yo!:)bangkok was alrightthere was good and badgood cos i got to shop! 15 tops 3 shoes 5 bags allbad cos my mom was being a bitch and my parents argue alotand this trip really make me realise how different things are when im w my family and when i'm with my friends!when im w my friends i can be crazy, laugh as loud as i want and burp out loud allbut when im w my family, they

2007-06-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

many things happened within the past few weeksfrom my emo-drastic-hairchange to me getting diarrhoreawell, all i can say is:been there, done that, moved oni got over the whole emo thing graduallythanks to the love ones i havealthough i don't say it much but THANK YOUesp JEAN CHIN. whom i havent met for so long. :Dthis week i've been really busy.cut java class with W66K to go for sushi buffetand

2007-05-24T17:23:00.000+08:00

you're not making this easy

2007-05-22T23:04:00.000+08:00

maybe somedaysomeone would look at me and sayshe's perfect; in her own waybi

2007-05-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

i won't say that people changedthings changed.i've been hurt so many timesn everytime when im abt to put the pieces back togetheri get hurt againim so used to it tt i don't bother to heal anymore.everytime i get all upset and hurti will do smth drastic to my hairwell. today is one such daybeverly ashley tan will be strongit just depends whengoodbyetoyou

2007-05-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

dear god,i sincerely wholeheartedly pray that you wouldturn back timejust this onceturn back to the time i was happya time we would laugh till we teareda time we would smile ear to eara time we would just look at each other and understood each othera time we need not say a single word but there wasn't any awkward momentsa time we did not care of the world and enjoyed each other presencea time we

2007-05-15T00:34:00.000+08:00

beverly ashley tanforced herself to go to school today for java which suxgot sick in schoolshe fell asleep on the table for the first time while doing workgot made fun of the shirt she wore to schoolgot teased by a group of mudsalmost fell to her death when the escaltor suddenly stoppedreached home at 11.30 pm.got her point proven two times todayand realise she should stop saying sorry

2007-05-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

kbox with W66K on wed:Dsing sing sing!went to bugis just nw w shaz and we searchedHIGH AND LOW LEFT AND RIGHTfor our grey jeans but couldn't find!boo! :((met jean and charmaine for dinner at BK with shazuntill they had to leaveso i got dragged by jean to go shopping with herand all of sudden i see a shop selling JEANSand they had the grey jeans!!!BEST AHHHHHwoots. love it HEHi'm so tired now i

2007-05-04T09:09:00.000+08:00

i'm not in the best of moods right now.so today i played the bad guyso be it.i don't wanna talki'm sick and tired abt itcos the outcome would always be the sameFUCKING KILL ME

2007-05-01T02:01:00.000+08:00

i'm u.b.e.r tired!i had so lil sleep this whole weekend!booo.bar-ed at bungy bar with the church gang +jean on satand i drank litte!hahah.in the end everyone left and only me and lynette stayed onbut nvm. the two of us drank abstinthe!75% babywoots to you lynette! :Dthe two of us could still made it home and wash upand yet wake up for mass and lunch tgr after that!POWER!so anyways.school today

2007-04-28T02:33:00.000+08:00

this is house not a homei come home to be alonethings are getting worst.much worsti try to cover my ears so i don't hearbut it doesn't helpone menopausing and throwing temper all aroundone depress and tipsy rumbling onFUCKIT.life hasn't been too nice to me these past two dayswoke up late for schoolalmost fell running up the escalatorfelt sick the moment i reach schoolgoing late for classbeing

2007-04-25T16:49:00.000+08:00

woohoo W66K!!!last night was a fantastic pubbing night!we only know each other or a weekand it felt so fngoing out with them!after a crap class in sem 2.i finaly have a good class againwoots.i have never drank so much in such at such a short time2 mugs of beer bottoms up1 terquila shot1 absin which kill all of us2 more mugs of beer bottoms upall before 12amwe drank too fast and all of use were

2007-04-20T15:44:00.000+08:00

one week into school and i had to experience studying for my course stuff.databaseit secruitydata communicationobject orientation programming.most of the modules really made me super boringi stoned like nobody's business!!!but the worst module is JAVA PROGRAMMING!!!oh my tian!i hate visual basics and now i hate java programmingi don't fucking understand what i'm doing and my faci sux like fuck

2007-04-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

17th april!1 year since i entered RP1 year since i met W34Cwoot.i can still rmb i worked with chris, yumin, amir and benand how the me chris yumin amir and shafiq became the original 5 den.see how much we have grown!some bonds are still as strong if not stronger.some bonds started to break.yes.i'm grateful for each and everyone of themchris my dearest brother dear THANKS DUDEgloria my

2007-04-17T00:14:00.000+08:00

school officially started today lah!i'm in a totall new class now who i did not know anyone from.and my first lesson was database stuff.it's reallyyyyyy boring and i felt like sleeping through out the whole day.BUTi'm really glad that i went to school todaycos i got to meet the people who i really really really miss!shaz! shanie! chris! minyi! dinie! gloria! ester! kalai!i was glad to actually

2007-04-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder.why do i make sacrifices so that you can just be there for that someonewhen they always go unappreciated?once bitten twice shy.buti have never given up hope cos maybe one day,they would notice and appreciatebut it always never happens.the time.effort.money put in.all gets flushed down the drain as tho they dont mean anythingbut it did so much to meso here i am once again;

2007-04-14T22:19:00.000+08:00

clubbed at MOS with jean lynette theresa shawn and kimi would say the best clubbing ever.spent only on the coverhardly drank which is good.dance for like 4 hrs non stop alli'm burning calories! HAHthey came over to my place and did gaby's present while theresa took her 1 hr nap.we surprised gaby at the airport and sent her offyou can't expect me not to cry when waving bye to her13 years of

2007-04-13T02:54:00.000+08:00

JOHOR LOVING. :)i went to johr with shaniewoots.girls road trip!as usual we ate at our favorite place! secret receipe!and we did major shoppingi got my vans and adidas shoes.my hat and a tee!YAYNESSi wanna go again uh!heehee OUR FAV what shani bought what i bought RAMI BURGER! woots

2007-04-13T02:37:00.000+08:00

OMG.i'm starting school on monday!SHUCKERSit sux uh. going into class full of unfamilar facesand all your friends are so far away!:(today it suddenly hit me how much i miss everyone.i miss gwen and jolynn like mad!i miss the ij-iansi miss the special ones back in 2004. a pity tt we all driftedi miss theW34C. although we just had the chalet but they were the best class ever.i miss shanie and shaz.

2007-04-09T00:43:00.000+08:00

I AM DEPRIVED OF SLEEP!i barely sleep nowadays.and even if i do.i keep getting all those weird dreams and wake up finding my face all wet from crying:(mom is back from san fansicome and dad went to pick her and we were hiding away from herlike kids lah! a 59 year old man actually suggeste hiding!no wonder im playful too! good genes dad! :)she bought ton load of clothes back!woohoo!f21, American

2007-04-07T00:25:00.000+08:00

last went by like uber fastBAM! and im one week closer to school reopen!BOOOOOOso i went for W34C class chalet.this time more people came and stayed through out!i'm really glad they came!this was better den last year's one.we spent most of our time playing mahjong or watching the tv and of course driving around in chris car! that fella can really drive well lah!there were highlights of the chalet

2007-04-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

work crew!yes. work went greatalthough it was pretty tiring and hactic.i had fun!i could still whack other girls and guys butts, joke along, sing and allwhile i was working! but the hard part was looking at all the pretty stuff and not being able to shop for them!RAHRAH.so we pulled a 10hr shiftand went for dinner at macs.shawns idea to go clubbingso me shawn minyi charmaine and jean went to

2007-03-31T00:38:00.000+08:00

summer fling.met up with clem after his classand went we over to aerin's for lunchlove that place! :)oh oh.he sucha doll lah.he was actually late cos he was q-ing up just to get me donuts from donut factory!yummy!thanks dude! it really cheered me up!i was sooo tempted to eat fried mars barsbut my dear throat won't allow me:(we bumped into sid!she quit school lah!she's retarded lah.but all the

2007-03-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

seriously FUCK YOU!i'm not that kind of person who you think would be happily feeding off other people's sadness.by just commenting one sentenceyou turn all my good intentions into bad ones.i know you don't mean it but the fact is, you fucking thought about it.and it's not only involving you and me but it's effing involving HIM too!if you think this way.what more if he thinks this way.even being

2007-03-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

i hate the position i am in nowi just can't make big decisions!no matter what my decision is, i would be hurting someoneOH GOSH.ian got admitted again.i'm not for how long this time.i'm already missing him like mad!anywaysthank the lord for dad.there was this HUGE ASSSSSSS cockroach in my roomi was freaking out so much until dad killed it for me.rest in peace stupid cockroach.OMG.two nights in a

2007-03-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh.I WANNA GO TO BANGKOK!i wanna go to all the night markets and shopand come back with shitloads of stuff!RAHHH.eh eh. anybody wanna go?roadtrip eh?i'm gonna start saving up like right now :)oh. all positions for the jobs are taken up.

2007-03-26T19:46:00.000+08:00

fuck you.good for nothing eh?BITCHanyways.moving on to more impt things.mom's friend from USA is having a close door bazaar sale.she will be bringing apparels and other stuff from USA.i need 3 more people to work this sat.(no worries those whom i've ask, your places are secured, a total of 12 of us would be working together)preferably girls, im not sure about guys yet, i'm getting in touch with

2007-03-25T00:43:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh.sick!no voice! totally can't talk!oh gosh!BOOOOOi had a uber long day ytd!i had to make my way to sch at 810 just to go for some Eurasian tour thing.me and shaz headed to parkway after that.i really miss going there.idk why uh but whenever i go there i feel so at home.:Dheaded over to bugis to meet shanie!more shopping! :)woot!i got my black jeans and and andI GOT MY CONVERSE SHOE!SO UBER

2007-03-22T01:51:00.000+08:00

the pain in my throat is excruciating!it hurts when i swollow! :(anyhows.i got my big bumbum to mom's office today to help her out with her stuffwas the best shit ever. i got to slack and use the internet and listen to music and get paid $60!well.. not exactly paid. more of paying off my $60 debt tt i owe her! haha.but now i got to help mom do a presentation about singapore so that she can

2007-03-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

i don't know how to explain the way i feel now.it's weird cos i had a whole entry thought ofbut now i just lost the mood to blog.yes.all good things come to an end.things always change.it's not like we can always hit pause or stop like a song.it's not like we can always replay or rewind our memories like a song.life goes on whether you want or not.sacrifices i make.tt's all i have to say.

2007-03-13T16:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 1ST MY DEAR!!!woohoo!it's been a year since you entered my life.a year since i started depending on youa year since you're always there for mea year since you've been my best companion and confidant.a year since you've been an outlet for my emotions.a year since i started loving you!although there were times we went through lots of shit tgr.and spent days apart.i'm glad tt we made through

2007-03-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

300 is an awesome show!the visuals the camera workthe whole zoom in zoom out slow mo effets were FANTASTIC:))thanks for watching with me jean!1! 2! 3!TA DA!!! after 3 weeks of boring meaningless worki finally bought back the camera!PANASONIC FX30well, it is better then the previous one cos its newer and allbut we went too late to get the black finish silver still looks as good anyhowand the best

2007-03-08T01:25:00.000+08:00

POP! goes my heart!so practically everyone knows abt the sumatra earthquake.i had to experience it lah!DANG IT!i din feel it the first time but we were all told to evacuate the building cos the building was shaking.so i tot it was because our building is old!but when i went down i realise that almost every building was evacuated!the 2nd time was scary.i swear i tot i had a headache untill i held

2007-03-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

now i know why jennifier hudson won the oscars for best supporting actressDREMGIRLS IS GOOD!!!athough it's pretty dramatic with all the singing but still two thumbs up.went to school just to hand up the stupid form for this trip im ggbt i got to meet shaz gloria and javier :Dmiss all these pple!W34C! W24C! IJ!ok random.went shopping lah!BEST! after so long.i got my forever21 tunic top. SHOES!

2007-02-26T23:09:00.001+08:00

i've been uber busy these past few days.i don't even get to rest at alland my bones are aching everywhere!SHUCKS IM GROWING OLD MANSRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHanyways.i went to the national museum on friday for some sch CE thing.the museum is a must go lahreally.i had so much fun there.there were so much things to see and do.i wanan go back lah!hahaha.so after that i had to zoom down to work and i

2007-02-20T01:58:00.000+08:00

i'm currently testing out blogging with ben's psp.honestly, it's rather difficult and slowbut its all a matter of getting used to it.nevertheless! thank the person who decided to make a key board.i'll seriously stick to using a key board to blog!anyways.cny this year started off really really really bad.picture this, instead of waking to the sound of serenity or the footsteps of relatives paying

2007-02-17T17:02:00.000+08:00

once again, i came home at the stroke of midnight!cinderella strikes again :))valentines day this year turned out to be quite different with emo sessionswhat's emo session without smoking.i broke my record for not smoking.this time is an exceptionwell, for what its worth.i got chocolates :Dso anyways.last night was our family renunion dinner at some beijing restaurantwhat a turn of events it was

2007-02-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

THE DAY CAME AND WENT!it was the last day of school!last day with W24Clast day with W34Clast day of year 1.idk.i felt like shitfor the first time i cried like no body's business.when we had to change class last sem i was differentcos we can meet each other all.but now, we are all gonna be in diff schools all.and chances of us meeting are slimSAD CAN!anyways.project micheal went WELL!all the

2007-02-11T19:12:00.000+08:00

hawhawmom is angry with me cause she says i'm becoming like cinderellacoming home nearly 12am everynightthis week has been really really really busy.everyday i have things to do and end up tiring myself so muchJOHOR TRIP FOR FUNTASTIC!!!i'm so glad that we still carried on our plan although it was just the 5 of us!i had so much fun.somehow i felt as tho i was in sg.but it was fun cos it was a

2007-02-08T14:51:00.000+08:00

i feel so sickmy body is gonna give way anytime sooni feel tired everytime.i'm getting flu and a coughand mybruise on my knee aint heeling.it's getting worst.if it doesn't get better by sat i have to go to the doctor cos i might have dislocated it.i'm really losing my drive in lifei'm tired physically and mentally.somethings are best not said but revealed by itselfwhether it would be or when is a